That's right, the Karns Clan is expecting our second child due in January 2012 and we couldn't be more excited. I, of course, found out right before a day at work and had to make it through 5 hours of giving massages before I could come home and share the news with Ryan and Lula. I honestly wasn't really expecting a positive test, although I wasn't exactly surprised when it was. We both knew the possibility was high...
The first thing that ran through my mind was, "Oh shit. We aren't ready for this." Immediately followed by pure elation and excitement at the fact that I get to be a mommy all over again. Excitement for my daughter, that she gets to be a big sister. And oh, what a wonderful big sister she will be. Excitement for my husband and I, as we get to revel in the wonder of creating a perfect little human that came from both of us. Our little family is growing, which is what I have always wanted.
My pregnancy with Lula was a very stressful time. A first pregnancy is stressful enough as it is, full of unknowns, questions, and uncertainty. Mine had all of that, as well as Ryan was in Alaska fishing for my entire first trimester, I was going to massage school full-time, and I was living at my parent's house. I also had a "positive" screening test for Down's Syndrome, and had to go through a level 3 ultrasound without my husband next to me. I was uneducated in America's maternity system and just said "OK" to everything that the OB threw at me. As of lately, I have been immersing myself in other ways to experience pregnancy and child birth. Reading articles, watching documentaries, talking with other people and hearing their stories... So, before I even knew I was pregnant with this little one, I made the decision to go with a midwife and have a natural childbirth in our home. I had researched midwives in the area, and came across Nancy Spencer, LM, who has her birth center located in Lake Tapps. She has been practicing for over 40 years and has "caught" over 4,000 babies. She also published her book, "Heaven In My Hands" (find it on Amazon) which tells her story as well as recounts a few births that still fill her memory today. I am blessed to have her hold my hand through this journey, and I am excited to share my story with others.
I wish I would have journaled when I was pregnant with Lula...wish I would have written down everything I was experiencing and feeling after I got to hold her in my arms for the first time. What the labor and the delivery was like...I can still remember it like it was yesterday, but I bet I would tell it completely different now, as I would have explained it if it were still fresh in my mind. So, that is why I have decided to blog about my natural childbirth experience, not only to share my story with others, but to be able to recount my experience in a real and true way.
You are welcome to join me on this incredible journey which will end with a perfect and beautiful new little life.
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